pernah tak anda rasa...

pernah tak anda rasa diri anda berada di bawah?

pernah tak anda rasa low in motivation? 

pernah anda rasa apa yang anda buat tu sia2 saje?

pernah tak anda rasa diri anda terlalu kerdil di kalangan orang lain?

ye, saya rasa kan itu semua pada hari ini (6/12/2011)

di mana saya ada pembentangan berkumpulan.

setiap orang dalam kumpulan punya bahagian masing2 dan perlu buat dengan sebaiknya.

hanya untuk 20% markah untuk coursework.

ya, i do prepared from the last week.

reading text book, report and annual report.

i put so much effort to get the best mark.

because i know it's hard to get mark from the evaluator.

i do ask my friend about how to do.

i sacrifice my precious time to sleep just only to get the best.

but now, i got nothing. 

not worth with what i've done.

i get the lowest mark among others.

can you imagine what i feel?

i just can whispered in my heart.

i just can feel the sadness and cry.

but the result will never change. 

because it's already past.

times never return back.

just only you can change your life.

i do cry after i reach my room. 

i do cry on the phone.

i do even cry in my prayer.

YA ALLAH, is this 'dugaan' you want me to face?

i know i'm not good in doing presentation.

i know i'm not good in speaking in English.

i know i'm not good in explaining things.

and that is my weaknesses.

at least you give me some support not to take me down.

i'm really disappointed until i feel like why must ALLAH dedicated a person like you.

YA ALLAH, please give me some strength to face the day.

dan sekarang, saya tak mampu untuk berkata-kata lagi.

kesedihan saya ketika berada di bawah, hanya ALLAH saja yang tahu.

saya perlu terus berjuang sungguh pun pahit untuk di telan. 

dan biarkan air mata ini terus mengalir sehingga ianya kering sendiri.